Monday, November 9, 2009

My Decision

Tomorrow's the start of 'A' level. First paper is Math Paper 1. I'm still blogging now, goes to show how much 'effort' I'm putting in for the exam this time round. Anyway, I've thought through carefully. Decided to stop studying until I find the drive to. I never expected myself to stop studying at this age. Was struggling when making this decision. But found the courage to come to this decision after talking to some people. To those who have hopes for me in my studies, I apologise for being a disappointment again. Hope you all won't think that I'm making a foolish decision cos I'll return to studying in the near future, but not now. This may not be the right choice, but it's the best to me, at least I will enjoy what I'll be doing.

Now that I've given up a burden, I feel so much lighter now. For my other problems, I realised there's no point if I kept thinking and trying to find a way to solve them all at once. 发现我是在钻牛角尖。 I still have a very long way to go, but very little time to spend. I can't afford to waste time thinking so deeply and worry about my future, I have to do something. Whether or not my time is spend wisely or my decision is right, at least I have used my time to do something instead of nothing. I shouldn't spend my time thinking and doing nothing. My plans for the future? I still don't have a goal yet. So what? Time won't stop for me.

Anyway, in a dilemma now, again. Haha! =D Should I change to a full time job or stick to my current PT job? Was planning to take up another one or two PT jobs but was tempted to take up FT admin or secretarial job after browsing through the ads. Haha! Guess I just enjoy job hopping. Another thing, I may be working for this year's SITEX again if I'm selected. Wasn't too keen at first but didn't want to be a spoiler. Haha! =D

I'm going to start learning driving after I pass the FTT. Have yet to book a test date though. It'll be fantastic if I know how to drive, can travel around more convenient... I guess... If I don't get lost! Haha! =D

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